Exhale? But what if there’s no air left to inhale? Isn’t it
better to hold my breath, concentrate on staying alive without breathing? There’s
too much in the air, too much discouragement, too much pain, too much
disappointment, too much negativism. It’s so polluted, I’d rather not breathe.
I guess it doesn’t make sense, though, never to breathe at
all. But where? Where can I let out this breath, pour out the fear and anger
and bitterness I hold inside, without polluting someone else’s air? I’m not
sure it’s wise or responsible to exhale.
Where can I inhale, too? Where is the air safe to breathe? People
depend on me. I can’t run around not breathing. I have things to do. They need
me. Where can I go, or we go, or they go, to be able to breathe? Exhale?
Inhale. Exhale. It sounds so simple. It’s not even conscious.
For most people, I guess.
I’ve held my breath for most of my life, though.
Do I let it out in one brief, fierce scream of exasperation?
In a long, low moan? I’d prefer it to be an exultant song, a praise to the
Creator Who allows me to live and share in the joy of His being. If I’m
singing, too, the breathing is easier, in and out in rhythmic phrases.
So even my breath can be a testimony to God’s goodness?
Yes, Lord, my breath came from You, and I will trust You to
manage even that.
I . . . will . . . I will choose, intentionally . . . I will
exhale.
I suffer within chronic pain and I strive to live free. Enjoyed your blog.
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